Saturday, 6 October 2012

That dread, that fear, that angst.

I know that there have been millions of articles, thousands of blog posts, infinite features on this great man. So many people have penned down their feelings, opinion and views about his game, his attitude, his personal life, his social life and every other aspect of life that is humanly possible. No aspect has been left untouched when it comes to this maestro.



Even after all this, there is always something more to write about him, something more to explore, something more to contemplate on.

There has been a lot of critical analysis of his future after the series against New Zealand. He was not at his elements and this was observed by many. "If I had failed in a series at the age of 25, nobody would have looked into it too closely. Since this low patch has happened at the age of 39, there are many people raising eyebrows. I cannot complain. With age comes all these speculations," Sachin said in an exclusive interview with Times Now's most acclaimed journalist Arnab Goswami.

He was grilled with some harsh questions by the latter and he came out and beautifully answered all of them, never once losing his cool, never once lashing out.

"I will take the decision when my heart says so,"he said when asked about the R word.

His passion for the game, his hard work, his confidence, his charming smile, his personality is something I admire and learn from every day. He is one person who has shown me that a person can rise, even from ashes, to become as magnificent as before. When he was detected with tennis elbow, in the early 2000's, the world feared that he wouldn't be able to make it, and that his career was over. But he refused to let that get to him. He worked and he worked hard and came back with such strength that I was awe-struck. There was a flicker of doubt in me that he would not make it. But don't get me wrong. The doubt was only because of the injury and not because of his ability to play or deliver.

The day when he makes the call will be a hard one. It will rip my heart apart. I have grown up watching him play. I have grown up seeing his smile. I have lived my life thinking Sachin is there to score the runs, he is there to take India through. But this might not be the case soon. I know that he is human and it is only natural that he will call it a day soon, but he has been the God of cricket too long for me to think that he might not hold the bat anymore.

The leg glances, the upper cuts, the cover drives are all etched in my memory forever. But to think that I will not see anymore of it is something I shudder to even think. I can buy the cassettes of his performance and watch it any day. But it will never be the same. There will always be a hole inside of me which cannot be closed, a chasm so deep that it will engulf me.



There are many people out there who call him selfish, who say that he is no longer required, that he is a waste of space. I feel sorry for all of them. I feel bad that they cannot see what a wonderful player he is and above all, what an amazing person he is.

If there is one thing the world can do, it will be to let him play till he thinks that he can deliver. If there is one thing I can do, it will be to hope that he will play and play till the sun rises in the west.

He knows what is reality, he knows and accepts the fact that he is no God and he will have to retire one day. But he also knows that he wants to play and play well now.

Aishwarya Kumar. 

4 comments:

  1. I cannot ever say that i can understand what you are going through, I cannot even imagine imagine. It is heart breaking and it will be painful and that this the fact. I will not sugar coat it, but I can only say that I will be there with you holding your hand, I will be there sharing your tears and my of all I will be watching all his proud moments with you when this divinity of a player sets down. I know that even after he steps down, he will always be on a pedestal forever for you and for millions including me.
    Beautifully written. Brings tears to the eyes.
    Always,
    Paro

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    1. Thank you so much. :') I know. I know you will.

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  2. Aishhuuu! :(
    I haven't grown up watching him play, he was never my childhood idol, but it is going to be so hard to see an Indian cricket team without Sachin, to see a day when he wont be playing anymore. I remember feeling hollow last year, thinking that we wont have Sachin play for us anymore. :(

    I seriously hope that he makes a great comeback in the England Tour of India in Nov and shuts all his critics up.

    Well written as always,
    Nidheya.

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  3. Thank you so much. Yes I hope so too. :)

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